Darling Mummy,
With Mother’s Day around the corner, I wanted to write you a letter sharing some of my favourite memories. Walking through Bath yesterday I caught a waft of your perfume, Ysatis, and for a moment I thought you were somewhere up ahead of us. There are so many things I’m so grateful to you for, and I’m still in awe of all you achieved, and how you brought me up at the same time.
Soaps
Do you remember snuggling up on the sofa together to watch Dallas, Dynasty, and The Colbys? Today’s soap queens can’t hold a candle to Alexis. Although we could never understand why she fought so often with Krystle for Blake’s attentions!
Jewellery and Make-Up
Do you remember how I used to love playing with your make-up, costume jewellery, and drawer full of scarves? Funny how the wheel has come full circle as your grand-daughter plays the exact same games with mine. Except I don’t have any spit black cake mascara or orange lipstick…
Cooking
Do you remember phoning my father at work one day from our new house, to ask him how to turn on the oven? After he’d stopped laughing and told you, you made the yummiest pavlova ever – I’ve never tasted another one anywhere near as good as yours.
Interest Free Credit
Do you remember how all your major purchases were governed by whether or not you could get them on interest-free credit? And how you always paid off all purchases in good time so you never incurred any interest? It’s a lesson I learned well and I have no credit card debt today, thanks to you.
Garden Centres
Do you remember how I used to complain bitterly at being dragged around garden centres? I got so bored and could never understand why you loved looking at plants all the time – or buying them for that matter. I can see you smiling now as I inflict the same torture on your grand-daughter.
Advice
Do you remember how you always gave me unconditional love and support? And tried to give me advice that I rarely listened to? You can laugh to yourself as this is happening right now with me and your grand-daughter.
Love
Mummy, it’s been 28 years since I last saw you, spoke with you, held you. Cancer is a bitch. I hope your grand-daughter never has to lose her mother the way I lost you. It’s so unfair you never had the chance to meet each other, enjoy that special grandmother/grand-daughter bond, and gang up on me.
I hope you know how much I love you. I’m so thankful I had you to love me for as long as I did, and to teach me what I needed to learn. I am who I am today because of you and I hope you are proud of me. I still miss you, more than I can ever put into words. But I try so hard to believe that you’re watching over me, just as you always did when I was a child.
All my love, always, Lisa xxx
Lisa, This is lovely. I find it especially touching, as my mother too died when I was young (suddenly, from a brain haemorrhage). Such a pity they are not around to know, enjoy and be proud of their grandchildren.
Mary x
Thank you, Mary, I was in two minds as to whether or not to post this one as it’s so personal but in the end I thought others might relate to the loss of their mothers too. X
That was such a beautiful post ? I am so sorry you had to lose your mum. But reading this you have some amazing fond memories to always think of. This was such a beautiful letter for your mum! I am sure reading this she would be extremely proud of how you learned from her!
Lauren xx
Thank you, Lauren, that’s very kind. I hope she would be proud of me – I’m a product of her upbringing anyway! xx
God dammit Lisa…. This is such a beautiful post. I’m so sorry to hear that you lost your mum and to such a cruel disease. It sounds like you have a lot of precious memories to hold on to from her and she clearly did something very right – it’s obvious in the way you are with your own daughter. And I’m just a person on the internet and even I can tell how much of a wonderful mum you are! I’m sure Mother’s Day is always fairly difficult for you but I hope you can have a nice day <3 xxx
Oh Jenny, thank you so much, what a lovely comment, how kind of you. I’m not sure Flora would always agree with you but she’s still seven so below voting age, haha. Seriously, thank you, you’re so thoughtful, I’m very lucky to count you as a friend xx
This was a lovely post, Lisa. It brought a tear to my eye – I am glad that you have all those wonderful memories of your mum. She sounds like an absolute delight, and I am positive that she definitely watching over you and your daughter, smiling at the wonderful human she raised.
Thank you, Kirsty, that’s so lovely of you to say that. I’m very lucky to have so many happy memories, although obviously I’d trade them all in heartbeat to have her back. xx
Beautiful post! Sounds like you have some amazing memories of your mother! x
Thank you, I do indeed, I am very lucky x
This is so beautiful Lisa. So sorry that you lost your mum before she could bond with your daughter ?
Amy xx
Thank you, Amy, yes, I do wish they could have met, they would have adored ganging up on me 🙂 xx
This is such a sweet post! And so perfect for mother’s day! I find it so touching. I still have my mum but hers died when she was 5 years old. Such a beautiful post! xx corinne
Thank you so much. Mothers Day is always a challenge but I find it’s getting a little easier now because I have my own daughter. I’m so glad you still have your mum! x
Beautifully written Lisa xxx
Thank you so much, lovely, really kind xxx
So beautifully written Lisa. I’m sorry to hear that you lost your mum but I am so happy that you shared so many incredible memories together. Xx
Hebah
Thank you so much, Hebah. Yes, I do have a lot of wonderful memories, thankfully, I’m very lucky xx
This made me cry, completely touching and I’m sorry you had to lose your Mum. You’re right cancer is a bitch but I bet she is watching over you and your family and is completely proud of you.
Oh, I’m so sorry, I choke every time I read it but then I expect to, I didn’t expect anyone else to! Thank you so much for your kind comments, I hope my mum is watching and proud of Flora and me both, xx
What a beautiful post. It’s clear that you had such a loving relationship with your mom. I’m glad that you can look back and think of beautiful memories.
Thank you, that’s very kind. Yes, I’m very lucky I can look back on some wonderful memories, I just wish I’d had her for longer, xx
Aww Lisa this is a truly amazing post I have tears in my eyes reading it. I’m sure your Mum would be super proud of you ❤️ Thank you for sharing something so personal with all of us.
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Thank you, Mel, that’s so kind of you. I’m sorry if it upset you, I didn’t think it would affect anyone else like that. I was in two minds whether to share it but I thought it might strike a chord with others who’ve lost parents or loved ones too. Thank you again, xx
This post actually just made me tear up, its so brave of you to share this with us! I totally relate to the garden centre comment! I used to hate going there with my parents but I love them now! – – https://sophhearts.com x
Oh, thank you, Sophie, I’m so sorry about that! I think garden centres must be a sign of adulting, I don’t know a single child that would willingly go to one, even if there are fish ponds there 🙂 thank you for your lovely comment, xx
Such a beautiful post and a wonderful tribute to your Mum ? x
Thank you, Lisa, that’s very kind of you, much appreciated xx
Oh Lisa! This is such a beautiful and emotional post. I am so sorry to know about your mum. But the memories you shared are so real and beautiful and filled with love. Your mum is definitely there with you always. You are so similar to your mum in everything 🙂
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Thank you so much, that’s very kind. I think I am quite similar to my mum although she had deeper wells of patience than me – or maybe I just need to tap harder 🙂 xx
Lisa, this is such a beautiful post ?. You & your mum have such lovely memories you can cherish forever. From your posts, I can see you are a fabulous mum to Flora, your mum would be extremely proud. Thank you for sharing this special heartfelt letter and Happy Mothers Day for Sunday xx
Thank you, Bexa, that’s a lovely thing to say. Mothers Day is getting easier now I have Flora for sure, it’s a special day with a whole new meaning for me 🙂 xx
Beautiful my friend???
Thank you very much x
This is such a beautiful letter, and I hope one day that I can honour my mother in the same way, and with such eloquence x
Oh, Lydia, thank you, what a lovely compliment, that’s so kind, wow! Xx
What an absolutely beautiful and touching post. I love remembering back to everything I done with my mum, especially when it’s mother’s day. I’m so sorry for your loss, it’s definitely not easy but all those touching memories will always be with you as will she.
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Thank you, Jordanne, that’s a lovely thing to say, I do hope she is with me xx